Lose yourself in the music...

Random Stuff

2006-06-15T01:25:00.000+08:00

Ok, I just finished fixing some stuff to update my blog. With the help of Boss Angels Kats (Tnx boss), I got this new template up. Well, it might seem the same, but she fixed a few stuff here and there. I also updated the links.

If anyone wants to link their blog here just comment! hehehe!

And now i gotta sleep!! it's past 1:30 already, buhbuy!

Isang_Salita's Back in business

2006-06-14T00:45:00.000+08:00

After a long long long long long long.. (ah, nevermind, you get what I mean)!

As I read the status of a friend of mine, I can't help but wonder why many people tend to rather forget past experiences that have not turned out the way they plannned them to be. I mean, yes, it hurts when one looks back at those experiences but, doesn't that justify the fact that those experiences should not be forgotten?

Memories exists simply because those are pieces of the past that happened to us. Most of these memories might be "forgotten" every now and then but given the time to contemplate, these memories will come flooding back with every bit of detail. So if a person tries to forget bad memories, what that person's simply doing is pushing that specific memory as far back as posible so that it would be forgotten in that person's everyday life. Although this specific practice seems to work in the short run but never in the long one. This is simply because even though the person has buried that memory as deep as possible in his or her mind, there are still things around him or her that will serve as a constant reminder.

In effect, all the effort to forget will be wasteless. So might as well live with all those memories. Let the good ones raise you up when in a bad situation and let the bad ones serve as reminders to yourself that you're now a stronger person compared to who you are before.

After all, it will all boil down towards a person's mindset. A person can separate memories as "good" and "bad memories or simply "good" and "not so good". It's hard to explain here but the point is, it will all depend on the mindset of each person if he or she'll take an experience and consider it as something worth forgetting or if it's something worth experiencing.

After all, one can't fully appreciate the good things in life without first experiencing the not so good ones :p

Holiday Hangover

2006-01-04T21:53:00.000+08:00

Ok, the atmosphere earlier today at school was a bit different compared to the usual busy day at ADMU. Maybe because the people are still in vication mode. I don't know. It's just that, the usual hyperness (is there such a term?) of the people is still not there, er, wait, it was there but towards the end of the day it just disappeared. The caf up was almost empty, the P1 table was QUIET for a change!!! I mean, those things never happened before!!!!! (wow, look at all the exclamation points)

Well anyway, I hope the usual aura of the people will come back soon. Wala pa sa mood ang mga tao. hahaha...

I'm back

2006-01-01T20:56:00.000+08:00

The Christmas break is about to end so might as well spend some time to update my blog since I doubt it if I'll have a lot of chances to update once school starts (espacially because of a certain english prof... ggrrr...).

Christmas this year was the same as last year. I still don't feel the spirit of the season mainly because I have a lot things to think about (Including a studid 6000 word essay... ggrrr again...). But anyway, I enjoyed it non the less. What really made the season Christmasy was the block party, and all the things we did that day before the party; the birthday of The Man Himself and the annual outing of my cousins.

The block party was the perfect way to end the year. Since almost all of us had no more classes by Wednesday (dec 22), some of us dcided to attend the optional math class just to see what the answers to the long test were (intense people). After that, ,we fixed a few stuff then went to Gateway to either start buying our Christmas gifts or to accompany those people who'll but Christmas gifts because we had nothing to do. So after all that walking, talking and Time Zoning, we went back to ADMU at around 4:30 (I cut my English class, haha, well, Rafael would just probably talk and talk and talk about things not related to English). Then we went to Mart's house to play poker (too bad I lost P20). Then after that we went to Libis and ate. Too bad I left early since the people at home sleep WAY TOO EARLY!!!

After that, nothing earth shaking happened (pathetic I do say so myself), then on Christmas day, all the relatives I know went at home so that we can celebrate Christmas together, yehey. It was there that we ate to our heart's content (but I still didn't gain weight awww... payat pa rin masyado...). After lunch the younger genaration of Munsayac's, Mallari's, Gonzales' and Pilapil's went to Starbuks to buy some coffee and arrange the much awaited outing.

The actual outing started December 30, I commuted all the way to Glorietta (sp?) to meet two of my cousins. Then we got a taxi and went to Heritage Hotel to meet the rest of the people. Little did we know though that the place we decided to meet was located at the center of the biggest traffic jamb that night. Thanks to the fireworks competition we burned about 200 pesos to go there. Anyway from there, we decided to tour the Casino Filipino branch there, yehey again! (that was my first time inside a casino, haha). Then after that we went to Fort Bonifacio for the festivities. We ate and drank at Pier 1 and since one of my cousins came from the states, he was the one who paid for it all! (thanks cuz!!!). After drinking (God knows how many bottles of SanMig lyt we drank) we went to a coffee shop and after that we called it a night.

Then I slept at my cousin's house (got there at 2:30 haha). Then woke up at around 8, ate breakfast and sadly started doing the stuff I needed to do for English (gggrrrr....) then afer eating lunch and watching a movie, my aunt, cousin and I went at our house to celebrate the new year.

Well, that's pretty much it, hahaha. Now I need to go and reply to Rafael's announceement. Hahaha, buhbuy now.

A girl said that I could retire na...

2005-11-21T11:55:00.000+08:00

First things first. Thank you to all the people who greeted me through out the week!

--> Thanks to God, who has given me a lot of blessings such as the people written below
--> Thanks to my parents, titos and titas, my cousins (pramis may inuman next time)
--> Thanks to the emboys, even though we're not classmates anymore love ko pa rin kau
--> Thanks to my course blockmates miggy, nica, chia, ralph, mark, mian, perci, jau and the rest of the P1
people
--> Thanks to my English blockmates, the charlie's angel crew: cams(i don't know where I'll put your name, kung sa P1 or R26 so sama na lang kita sa charlie's angels crew), pearl (I got the charlie's angels crew name from you, hehe), nicole, and luigi; the wednesday syndrome people, pau and abeth and the rest of R26
-->Thanks to all my other friends who greeted!!!
--> and ofcourse, thank you boss for greeting and thanks for the love you give me! Wuv you very much!! *poke *poke hehe,

Basta, thanks to all the people who greeted me and to everyone who has been part of my life for the past 19 years! (tanda ko naaaa)!

You'll be wasting your time if you read this (rant rant)

2005-11-12T17:02:00.000+08:00

Why is it that whenever I visualize some event that I want to happen in the future, fate, destiny or whatever that shit’s called, finds a way to steer away from that specific event?

No, really, I mean, other people always visualize their goal may it be a simple slow dance in a prom with the girl they like or something as big as being able to achieve something that only a few people can do. Yeah, these people do that and achieve the things they visualized. But why the hell does that not happen to me and why does the opposite of what I visualize happen? What the fuck did I do?!

Yeah, once and a while I get selfish, so bear with me with this one. I have a feeling that this will be full of my bull. Selfish as it is, I want it to come out here so that I’ll not bring it with me to school this Monday. I want the start of my second sem to be a good one. I don’t want to see myself sulking and infecting the people I see.

Anyway, back to the topic. I really don’t understand if all this is just a series of coincidences or just plain bad luck. The next stuff I’ll write are just some of the many examples of what happens to me when I visualize something.

Way back when I was in grade 7, oh how I wished to be one of those people who had the privilege to catch the lower batch students and place them in a jail booth during the grade school fair (hey, that was my dream then!). You see, only grade 7 classes were allowed to have a jail booth. But what happened? Some stupid terrorist bombed something and the whole fair was cancelled because the school felt that “it is not good to celebrate while our brothers and sisters are in misery...” Instead of the fair, the grade levels had their separate programs and I ended up in a booth selling food. The best part was that our class’ booth was in the middle of a muddy field. Fun. Then when I was in third year high school I dreamed that I would dance with the girl I loved back then (don’t get me wrong, we’re still the best of friends) during our prom, especially the slow dance part. But, again, it never happened and it would be best not to share too many details here for obvious reasons. For the people who knew what happened, alam nyo ‘to. The most recent thing is a lot less serious or as deep, but I guess that was the last straw (*laugh *laugh). I really did see myself using that ipod for a long time. And I really mean USE. I mean look at me, I love music and since I’ll have 3 hour breaks four days a week this sem, an ipod would certainly be great. Yeah people, I know this last thing is shallow, but wait till you know why I lost my ipod. No it did not get stolen, heavens no. And if I’ll tell the whole story here, I bet there would be a hell of a lot of bad words here. And I mean a HELL OF A LOT.

He could have just waited for around 40 minutes more to see the stupid report. It would not change anyway, even if you looked at it tomorrow. All I asked for was for you to patiently wait for forty lousy minutes until the scan was finished. But noooooooo… you can’t wait. Well screw you. As for the other one, why do you always think about the costs? But when it comes to him (this him is different from the “He” at the strat of the paragraph), you don’t care.

I really don’t understand it. Or maybe I’m just too blind right now to see through your actions. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t hate you or anything like that. But sometimes you really go too far.

OK! Enough ranting… this is already too much for one post. Yeah, I can be bad to people if they push me to my limit. To the people reading this shit of mind, sorry to waste your time with my useless ranting and please do me a favor. Whatever you read here, keep it to yourself ok? Thanks. If you want to comment, go ahead, hehehe =))

This is why I love to be spontaneous. I don’t like making plans for the future since I already know that it won’t happen. At least I don’t get disappointed right? I like it better to dance to the present beat rather than to the future.

Gaya-gaya

2005-11-11T16:29:00.000+08:00

Since a lot of people have written posts regarding stuff related to grades and the second sem, well, might as well do it for myself. After all, I have my own opinions about myself and the stuff around me.

The first thing I’ll blab about are my grades. Right now I’m satisfied with the grades I received. The hell, I should be happy with them. But still, I fell that I can still do more next sem even though I’ve been warned about a certain teacher that I’ll have. According to Pearl, she’s a legend and apparently, Nica, together with the other people I know who had this teacher, agree. Another thing to look forward to would be the very big obstacle called BOTANY. But hey, I’m up to the challenge! I want a DL this semester, and with the right motivation, I WILL reach that 3.35 mark. (and I’ll need you guys to shout at me every time I say “bahala na” when I’m studying). But, the main thing I need to do aside from this is balance everything from studying to spending hours gazing at the computer screen and doing nothing productive.

The next thing I need to realize is that this break will end in a few days time and that I need to haul my ass big time. I’ve spent too much time doing nothing aside from being a log. So after fixing a few stuff, which includes the task of pumping my brain to life again, I’ll be my usual self again. I hope.

Subconscious Multi-tasking

2005-11-05T16:36:00.000+08:00

It’s amazing how boredom can sometimes squeeze some good stuff out of your head. Yes it may seem strange but hey, it does. You know why? Well for one, with nothing to do you’ll be forced to either sleep or think. But after the many hours devoted for sleeping (God knows I really needed the rest), the mind would have enough energy to wander around. Sooner or later, it will bump into something.

It wouldn’t matter what that something is. What would matter is that that something has a potential to push you out of the task of being a log and drive you to do something productive. In my case, it all started with the guitar (again).

I was playing it as usual. Then after some time I got tired of playing the usual songs so I decided that I’d just play with the chords. Of course I laughed at myself a dozen times because of the abysmal chord patters I get to produce. Then once in a while, I’d stumble upon a decent pattern. Slowly, those patterns became an intro, a verse, a refrain, a chorus and a bridge. To make a long story short, in two days I managed to compose a whole song and after a long time, satisfied myself in finishing it.

It really has been a long time since I last composed a decent song. The last once I composed before this one was for my boss angel kats (wuv u) and I even made her think of an appropriate title.

So anyway, I didn’t write this entry just to brag to the people reading this that I made a song. The main reason why I wrote this is not because of that. It’s just that when I played the song over and over again, I realized a lot of things (only two things actually, haha) about myself. Some of those stuff I already know, some I really had no idea that that “stuff” is inside my head at all.

So let’s start at the stuff that I already know. Funny, to be honest, this was the second thing I realized when I finished everything. But what the hell!! Anyway, I realized that I really an a natural multi-tasker (yeah!) because, in composing the song, I managed to stop impersonating a log at home (1), composed a song (2) and was able to reflect on a few about myself (3). O diba? 3 things all in one shot!

The first and real realization that I was able to um… realize was that all I really wanted was to be free from a lot of things I don’t need. Free from all the negative limitations that a lot of factors like society, authority and even myself have imposed and I can’t and must not jump over these limitations in order for me to be considered normal or sane to other people.

I find these things very burdensome. Yes I know that these limits were placed here in the first place because they hinder me from doing negative things. But sometimes, there are just those limitations that really have no purpose. I just want to let all of these go and be free from all the negative stuff that has been hindering me and the other people out there to perform to 100% capacity. So basically, that’s the song’s message. And here it is (I figured, since this whole post is revolving around a song –not the fact that I made one – might as well write the lyrics).
Runaway

You and me, this is how
I picture us to be
Together we can…

Fly away to wherever we
Please, to soar in the clouds
and spread our wings

Let’s runaway to a place
Where we can be free
Let’s say goodbye, to
All the pain and misery
Oh let us be free

Let go, of all the limitations
That life has set, let us shed
All of this and…

Fly away to wherever we
Please, to soar in the clouds
and spread our wings

Let’s runaway to a place
Where we can be free
Let’s say goodbye, to
All the pain and misery

Oh I don’t care what we’ll see
In front of us, with no regrets we’ll

Fly away to wherever we
Please, to soar in the clouds
and spread our wings

Let’s runaway to a place
Where we can be free
Let’s say goodbye, to
All the pain and misery

Let’s run away to a place
Where we can be anybody
We please, a place where
There is no pain and misery

Let’s runaway (x7)
To a place where we can be

And so there it is. Hahaha… I really hope that I can compose songs like this all the time. Oh well, like I always say, bahala na!!!

Wow naman ah. hehe

2005-11-03T11:07:00.000+08:00

You Are Internal - Realist - Empowered

You feel your life is controlled internally.
If you want something, you make it happen.
You don't wait around for things to go your way.
You value your independence and don't like others to have control.

You are a realist when it comes to luck.
You don't attribute everything to luck, but you do know some things are random.
You don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you...
But you do your best to try to make your own luck.

You have a good deal of power, but you also know the pecking order.
You realize that working the system does get you further.
You know who to defer to and who to control.
When it comes to the game of life, you play things flawlessly.

The Three Dimension Luck and Power Test

Scrapbook

2005-10-27T15:46:00.000+08:00

Ayan boss yung front cover at eto naman yung back cover nung scrapbook,

Hehehe, eto p ulit yung measurements:

front cover n back cover: 35 x 25.3 cm
yung back cover, yung border 2 inches all sides,
yung front cover yung border nungh length ay 7.5 cm at yung width 10 cm

Ayun, hehe, 831!!!

*I'll tell the story about this later in another post, hehe, ü

Originals

2005-10-27T11:30:00.000+08:00

The other day I rumaged through the stuff I have in my room and came across this little clearbook that I thought I had lost during forth year. It be frank, it contained the stuff I did every time I was inspired, bored or challenged. In short, it contained copies of my old short stories, some drawings (drawn by my classmate Leonard during 3rd and 4th year), ans some songs that I composed. Since I had nothing to do that day, I grabbed my guitar and fiddled with it.

Wow. It has been a long time since I last played those songs to myself or to my friends (Except one song which I play every now and then when I talk with boss). After I while, I also played the two songs that my classmates and I composed for our music projects and the other songs that my other classmates composed. Yes, those songs by Jim and Underscore (you guys rock!!), the ever so reliable songs of Balucs (especially necromancer) and the love songs of the dynamic duo of Jake and Carlo.

While I ws playing, I can't help but remember the Emboys. One thing that really made the class the class of M2005 was the music. The drumset of CPG; the organ of carlo; the countless guitars owned by Parms, Balucs, Cemir, Bana (sori dude, ganyan n talaga tawag k sau :P), Noel, Onie, CPG, Jim and me (kung kulang sorry); the kajon of Marin; and the voices of our vocalists. With all the instruments and talent in one class, all I can say is wow.

As I was playing the songs, it all came back. The lunch periods where everybody within a two classroom radius would hear us sing Lunes, the music presentations where we would all cheer after every one of us got 100, the gigs all over the place and even the simple jammings. After all the songs have been played, all I can do is smile a little (syet, keso) and remember the three years that we've spent together.

Grabe, miss ko na kayo. Even though all of us have different things to do now, all I need to do is play our songs again and close my eyes. After that, I'll see myself again as a second, third or forth year emboy... basta! M2005!!!

Politics... syet... iba 'to ah

2005-10-27T06:03:00.000+08:00

Every single day for the past week or so, all I get to see and hear in the newspaper headlines, daily news and the radio show my grandparents listen to every morning is politics. Politics. Politics. Politics. It’s all about that and to be honest I’m sick and tired of seeing and hearing this practically everywhere.

But I really don’t see the valid point in this. The first question I have is why does the Administration and the Opposition need to fight over who won the elections, tell whether the evidences (the blasted tapes) are authentic or not and all that crap? Just tonight I heard about the “Court of the People” thing that the anti-GMA people were organizing. Hell, why is there a need to have an administration and opposition anyway?? Why can’t they all just work together so that our countrymen can receive the benefits that the government is supposed to give the people? Why can’t they just cooperate with each other and stop all the finger pointing? I really don’t understand...

Furthermore, it’s not only that. It’s not just the politicians, heavens no. I also keep on hearing all these accusations aimed at different politicians and personalities. Accusations like “She took the money intended for this and instead used it for some personal thing,” sounds familiar? Yeah, but one thing the people who throw these accusations don’t explain to their listeners is the rationality of their accusations. Where did they find the grounds to claim these accusations? And why do they keep on blurting it out to the public ONLY? If they have evidences to prove their claim, then why don’t they just submit the whole thing -accusations, evidences and all- to the Ombudsman so that his office can properly do their work? Instead of doing these legal means to solve the problem, they take the fight to the streets, hoping to gain support from the people. By taking this issue to the streets alone, we will only ensure one thing: slowly kill the potential of our country. Yes we have the right to protest in the streets, but what do the protesters do? They do not get the permit, or they don’t follow the permit’s assigned limits.

And it’s not just them. All of us are at fault here even though a lot of us are doing nothing. That’s the point; the people who are doing nothing are also at fault precisely because they’re not doing their part in solving the issue. I too am at fault here.

But I’m just a (fill in the blank), what can I do? That was my excuse to myself. But hey, I have a voice, insignificant as it may be to other people. I don’t hold a position of authority or anything. I’m a just a college freshman. But if al those voices gather up and say the same thing at the same time, then, it’s a different thing.

As I see it, the one real change EVERY ONE of us needs is not a change in the leader or change in the system but a change in morals. If we just stop thinking about the “I” and start thinking about the “others” then all these issues will gradually be solved.

*Holy shit, I can’t believe I wrote this… haha, well if this offends anyone, sorry, but hey, I’m entitled to have my own opinion right?**Pardon the post, I’m just ranting here, hehehe… promise, the next post will be closer to home, hehehehe :)

I'm Back!!!

2005-10-26T10:35:00.000+08:00

After more or less five months of posting absolutely nothing in this blog, I'm back! College life literally ate all the time I had these couple of months. But since sem break na, babawi na ko, hahaha..

To summarize my first sem in college in five words all I can say is this: ONE HELL OF AN EXPERIENCE!!!! Super saya, super nakakastress, super nakakadrain, super nakakakilig, at super lahat-lahat na! basta, you college people would know what I mean. I can't pin the entire experience with only one emotion, college (for me) is really one big mixture of different feelings (syet, mixture, chem!!)

Next time na lang yung details, hehe...

Anyway, happy birthday Noel!!!!!!!!!!

--> I'm back... time for me to stop complaining, it's time to lose myself in my music once again...

SHIT

2005-06-10T15:24:00.000+08:00

that what i feel about myself right now. Don't ask why, basta ganun. I hate doing things like that... damn it..

My room

2005-05-27T14:59:00.000+08:00

As promised, eto na yung floor plan ng room ko, haha, Ü Nice try boss, hehehe Ü

yan, hehe, pasyensya na sa pic, cgurado d exact yung measurements nyan pero ganyan yung layout. Hahaha, Ü

To be honest, I don't know what I'll write

2005-05-25T15:56:00.000+08:00

Yup, here I go again. Trying my best to write something productive even though my mind is a bit blank right now. Neway, just bear with me on this one, random thought na 'to!

Ok, number 1, YEY npanood ko na Episode 3!! Hehehe, la lang, sharing. Since every Tuesday this summer wala akong magawa, nanood na lang ako so that maiba naman! It was worth watching at ang cheesy nung lines!!!!!!! hahaha Ü yung mga tao nga sa likod ko sinasabi "corny ah" or "cheesy naman nito.." or things like that. I can't say naman na I don't agree kasi cheesy talaga yung lines, haha...

Number 2, ano nga ba... hhhmm... la akong maisip... hay.. wla kasing masyadong nangyayari ngaun eh.. nothing interesting to write about... hahaha...

Cge, baka wala munang # 2... hhhhaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyy....... boring talaga.................. babay people!

I ate 1 1/6 slices of pizza

2005-05-21T15:32:00.000+08:00

Hahaha, today turned out to be better than usual. Oh, I mean yesterday pala, umaga na nga pala. Anyway, ganito kasi un, last Thursday ay birthday ng friend ko na kabarkada ni boss angel at kanina nanglibre cya sa Yellow Cab, yey ü So after ng class ko, I waited until about 4 to meet up with boss angel ang Ches sa tapat ng Expert Guides para sunduin ang celebrant na si Cha. Hehehe, tapos un, we went to Yellow Cab together with 2 of Cha's classmates sa Expert. At yun na nga, dahil gusto namin ng fair share sa pizza, nakakain ako ng 1 and 1/6 (kung pano nanging ganun, long story). Hahaha!

Unfortunatelly, I needed to go early, so before 6, umalis na ko. KAso before I was able to get a Taxi pauwi, bigla kong nakita yung Lancer. Yes! a free ride home!! Kaso, I needed to run pa kasi hindi nila ako nakita, hahaha, nakita lang nila ako after lumagpas sa Yellow Cab ulit. Hahaha, Ü Napatakbo ako ng 'di oras. So nakita na nga nila ako at biglang, poof!!! Napakain na naman ako sa Kenny, kaya nabusog ako sobra... hahaha ü

At ayun naka-uwi na ko ng bahay. Nothing much happened na afterward, the usual stuff, ka txt si boss, c tin, at c cha sa sun. Sinasabi pa ni Tin na kamukha ko daw si July! Kamukha ko ba cya? D k lam, hahha. Tapos cha said something to me kanina. Hahaha, at kung ano un, saming dalawa na lang un! (boss --> :p) Haha, it made me feel nice ah. Hehehe Ü

Ngaw... masakit ulo ni boss... sana mawala na un tom... yan kasi.. araw2 umaga na na22log... hay.. boss, ,alam k binibasa m 2, kaya i hope matulog kau ng mas maaga ah? Ü hehehe :D and speaking of maaga, i promised to sleep after this kaya babayu people!

Sa isang munting harana.. para sayo (na may kasamang background music!! hahaha)

2005-05-19T15:19:00.000+08:00

Hahahahaha, yup, tama ang nabasa nyo, hahaha! Basta, malalaman din nyo kung bakit, si boss alam na ipagsabihin ko eh, hahaha Ü

Anyway, today nagswimming ako ksama si boss angel kats, tin, prix, ches, mga kapatid at pinsan ni boss angel at madami pang iba! Perfect way to beat the heat magbabad sa swimming pool buong maghapon. Tama naman diba?

So ayun, tapos while nandun kami sa tito nila boss, binigyan nya ko ng anklet, yey, hehe, tnx boss Ü plus nakilala ko pa yung isa nyang cuz na ang pangalan ay Kuya Mathew (tama ba spelling? sori kung mali...). Before dinner nagkwentuhan kami about ghost stories, haha Ü

Plus, I also promised boss na may paririnig ako sa kanyang song. Hehe, I hope you like it boss. At as promised, eto yung lyrics:

In life, there are times where in
I just don't know what to do.
I just feel, I want to give up.
I just need someone to hold on to.

Someone who can see,
Through all the clutter inside of me.
Someone not in the faceless crowd.
Who'll tell me where I ought to be.

'Coz you're the only thing, that I can see.
With you around darkness cannot swallow me.
You are my light and my sweet surrender
You're everything to me.

I finally have,
A reason in all I do.

A reason I can hold on to
When things are looking bad.
A reason that I've searched for and found.
A reason I found in you.

'Coz you're the only thing, that I can see.
With you around darkness cannot swallow me.
You are my light and my sweet surrender
You're everything.
'Coz you're the only thing, that I can see.
With you around darkness cannot swallow me.
You are my light and my sweet surrender
You're everything to me.

So ayan. Kau bahalang gumawa ng title nyan boss ah Ü Hay, umaga na at hindi na masyadong gumagana ang utak ko, hahaha, kaya un, I'll try to sleep na rin, babay people!!!

Too Quiet...

2005-05-13T13:35:00.000+08:00

Ayoko ng ganito... ang tahimik masyado... and I hate it when it's quiet...

Kasi ganito, tulog na lahat ng tao dito at ako na lang ang gising. Dapat tulog na rin ako pero ayoko pa. Hello?! 10:30 pa lang?! Kaya ganun, kailangan tahimik ako kung gusto kong tiloy ang pagtatype nitong post na 'to.

And I hate it. Seriously. It's too quiet... all I can hear is the humming of the fan and the PC. The reason behind this is simply because when it's quiet, a person gets to reflect on different things that his mind would present to him. Usually, these things are on the the category I-don't-want-to-think-about-those-stuff. I think you get the picture.

I think I don't need to elaborate on the stuff I'm thinking right now simply because it's something that I think -no, that I know- I can only fix by myself and through time. But right now, I not yet at a position to do anything drastic about it.

Ok, enough with the deep shit. Summer na summer umaandar ang utak ko at ganyan pa lumabas. Hahaha. ANG INIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.... hahaha, buti na lang at nagsisimula ng umulan. Yey ü (gumagana na kaya ang alt 154 at 129 sa blog ko?? hmm...)

Mixed thoughts

2005-05-05T18:05:00.000+08:00

Hay... first things first... I really miss my boss angel... two days na kong less than P5 ang load at wala siyang 24/7 sa sun... ngaaaaaawwww... I really want to chat with her soon... 'di bale, papa auto load ako later, harhar ü

Anyway, hindi ako makatulog... bad trip... 2:30 na at 'di pa rin ako inaantok. Well, maybe its because of the alcohol dahil uminom ako kanina kasama ng mga classmate ko dahil bday party ni ali. Yeah, I think that's it. Hahaha, wierd ko noh? Ang epekto sakin ng San Mig Lights ay parang epekto ng kape sa ibang tao... hahahaha.

Pero I really needed that gimik ah. It helped me a lot. It made me think clearly about a lot of problems that I again exagerated. It made me see that I really enjoyed those kinds of moments (kasi naman sa buhay ko ngayon nakalimutan ko na ang pakiramdam ng isang gabi na kasama ang mga ka-close ko sa klase at sabay-sabay ang lagok ng beer. Napasaya ako nun ng todo, miss ko na kasi sila eh. Lalo na ngayon na medyo hindi ko alam ang dapat isipin sa mga bagay bagay sa buhay ko ngayon. Hahaha, pero saka ko na talagang pag-iisipan yan. Matagal-tagal pa siguro bago ko maayos 'to. And I know for one thing that this thing is one of those problems that I must solve on my own. Ang labo kasi minsan eh, sometines they're fair, sometimes they're not. Sometimes complicated sometimes hindi. Haha, labo noh? 'Di bale, alam ko naman na kakayanin ko 'to. Sigurado ko dun kasi for one thing I know that I could hold on to something - or rather someone who I consider special. Alam ko naman na hindi ako iiwan ni Kats no matter what. And I want to thank her for that even though she keeps on telling me that she's the one who's suppose to say thanks (Pero kahit anong sabihin nyo boss, thanks pa rin! haha, and dnt worry, kaya ko naman I-handle 'to).

Wait nga, una sa party ni ali tapos nauwi dun.. ano ba yaaaaaan... neway, balik sa party. Masaya siya, maski 'di ganun karami pumunta. It's good to see those guys again. HAhaa..

Haaay.... 3 na... d pa rin ako inaantok.. pero I need to rest na, kaya try ko ng matulog. gudnayt (o gudmornin?) people! ingats!

*boss, promise ayos lang ako, hehe, and ievmlyeuoorcvuyh üüü

Randomness

2005-05-02T14:42:00.000+08:00

To be honest, I really do not know what I'll write in this specific post. Maybe I'll write about something serious this time primarilly because that's the first topic that popped in my mind. Yes, I think it's time for a liilt bit of seriousness in this blog.

A lot of people kow me as someone who's not serious all the time. I talk a lot in class, I jump on other people's backs, I waste my time trying to fit in the sofa, even though I really don't fit, just to watch TV. I sing my lungs out every time I play the guitar at home and a lot of other stuff. A friend of mine even said that I'm a person of the present, someone who doesn't consern himself with what will happen in the future. He said that I just take it one day at a time.

But lately, I've noticed something different in myself. I find myself thinking, no, not thinking but planning ahead, for the future. Well, I guess I'm not that guy-who-takes-it-one-day-at-a-time so much anymore. And frankly, I don't know why.

I have a few hunches of course. But they're only hunches. Maybe it's because of my worries about college, maybe it's because of someone special. Maybe it's because I'm getting more mature. Maybe the things I do in CSO finally grew to the next level. Maybe, ,maybe maybe. I can give a lot of reasons why I'm doing those things and still not know if these reasons are really the ones. Wierd, yes, but that's what on my mind right now.

I'm not saying that this is bad. What I'm saying is that, naninibago lang ako sa sarili ko. Yes, I've said to myself that I'm going to shape up a lot time in the past but I just couldn't believe that it finally started.

Hell, maybe I am starting to grow up. I mean really grow up. I don't know. But one things for sure, I don't need to lessen the kid in me just because I'm starting to think properly. I just need to have more space for the young man to seettle in. One things for sure, ako pa rin ang ,makulit, gago at nababaliw na dondee na kilala ninyo. Ang pagkakaiba nga lang ay, masmulat na ko sa buhay kaysa sa dati.

I don't understand them at all...

2005-04-28T02:32:00.000+08:00

I don't want to waste blog space just for them... so one word : CRAP

Of late night phone calls and piano sessions...

2005-04-23T14:18:00.000+08:00

Hello people... hay.. these past few days ay wala akong nagawa.... hahaha, seryoso... walang pera at walang lakad na matino.. haha, buti pa sina boss.. nakapag badminton kanina.. hahaha!! Haay. tagal na ko na 'di nakakabadminton.. *inggit akoooooooooooooo...

Anyway, medyo hindi boring ang Wednesday at Thursday night ko! Yeah, wala nga akong lakad kaya sasakupin ko na lang ang telepono namin! Hahaha! Tamang tama pa, walang mgawa si boss angel kaya un! Hahaha, umaabot kami ng madaling araw, hahaha ü Ayos nga eh, may kakulitan ako na isang boss angel na hindi rin makatulog (pero seryoso boss, try nyong m2log ng mas maaga sa 3 ah?) . Kaya un masaya, hahahaha!!!

Tapos, may bonus pa nung Thursday, I got to hear boss angel play the piano... *sigh... I really like listening to the piano... lalo na pag magaling na yung tumutogtog... kasi ang hirap naman magplay nun diba? Compared to a guitar, kaya parang pag naririnig ko yung piece, hindi lang relaxing, nafifeel mo pa yung effort na binigay nung tumutugtog in playing the piece (naks, may natutunan pala ko sa Music Appreciation 2 nung 2nd year, hahaha) . La lang, sharing lang.

And speaking of guitar, I tries to enroll sa SM kanina... guitar lessons.. kaso puno na... ngaaaaww... better luck next time na lang siguro, haha, la lang, ,sharing ulit, haha ü

Cge, un na lang muna, bye pple üüü

Nahalata din pala niya... sayang..

2005-04-21T13:30:00.000+08:00

Ok, so nahalata din pala ni boss angel yung plano ko... ngaaw.. sayang, mas masaya sana kung surprise talaga eh.. pero ok lang.. nakapunta pa rin naman siya eh.. and that's what counts üÜ

Anyway, so ayun, it all started a long time ago. Sabi kasi ni boss na I should convince her and I shoud do it before the end of April! Haha, may deadline pa ko! Hehehe, kaya naman ayun, ginawa ko nga. Hahaha, at dahil gumana ang pagkatopak ko, naisipan kong gumawa ng 100 reasong why I Love You na nakasulat sa cash register tape (yung pang resibo) at nakaroll sa isang toy na paint roller... at nagawan ko pa ng maliit na tali, hahaha. Iba na talaga pag masaya ang buhay (huwah? labo).

Anyway, so puminta ko sa MCDO malapit sa kanina at naghintay, si jas naman tinext na ko na paalis na siya ng CLaret at susundoin na si boss sa bahay nila. So ako, hintay naman ako.. haha until nandun na sila. Si boss ready na ready! pagkaupo, may nilabas agad na letter (na sinasabi na huling huli kami ni jas.. ahahahahaha). So after ng mabilis na kwentuhan, kainan naman.

Ang masaya sa part na 'to may miscommunication samin ni jas. Akala kasi nya siya na bibili ng food ni boss. Kaya bumili siya ng 2 cheese burger meal na go bigtime pa! Tapos si boss naman bumili rin ng burger mcdo meal, kaya un! Dumoble. Hahahahaha Ü Tapos, medyo hinahyper pa ko nun, kinukuha ko mga gamit ni boss at tinatago, hahahaha, pagpasyensyahan na boss.. hehehe..

Tapos after eating, kwentuhan kami ni jas bout cars, at after ilan pang pangungulit, sinabayan ko sila pauwi at umalis din agad kasi malapit na kong malate sa usapan ko sa clasmate ko hahaha..

Hay.. hopefully naconvince ko na si boss.. well.. bahala na ü

Let the code breaking begin...

2005-04-17T05:25:00.000+08:00

Ang hirap!!!!!!!!! Hahahaha. Boss angel kasi eh!!!

Anyway, dun sa mga 'di magets un, eto kasi, last night kausap ko si boss tapos biglang lumitaw yung topic about "7" (code name ni boss sa isang guy) at pinahuhulaan nya sakin kung sino yun. Syempre may clues at eto sila...

1) ........................... 4) wvmlvw
2) ...... 5) qmwrvllohmxrnzozmhbzfizn
3) ........................ 6) yung post ni boss sa blog at survey sa friendster...

As of now wala pa kong makuhang kahit ano. Pero I have some guesses na on my mind but I still need to confirm it by using the other clues. Hahaha, la lang, patulong!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHA üüü

Happy day ÜÜÜ

2005-04-12T14:31:00.000+08:00

Hahaha, happy happy ako today kasi nakita ko si boss angel knina!!! YYYEEEEEYY üüü Biglaan nga eh, kasi may inabot akong cd sa kanya, hahaha üüü Sayang nga lang at umalis ako agad... daddy kasi... pinabalik agad ako tapos biglang may aayusin pa pla siya... ngaw... sayang, dapat 'di pa ko umalis agad... hay... 'di bale, next time, next time. Ay o nga pala, I still have 19 days to convinse her about something, hahaha, kaya yan!!! (Donderz: "think positive!!!) Basta promise boss, makukumbinsi kita before 19 days!! üüü

Tapos ayos pa, dito matutulog pinsan ko for 1 month! may kausap ako!!!! yessss!!! Haha, pano kasi ang tatanda na ng mga tao sa bahay, hahaha (sssssshhhhhhh!!!!!!!).

Eto n lang muna, hehehe, cge people, ingats!

ANG GALING TALAGA NI BOSS ANGEL KATS!!!!

2005-04-09T14:18:00.001+08:00

WOW, wala akong masay!!! Ang galing talaga ni boss angel!! Speechless ako... ang galing... Thanks po boss angel for the wonderful blogskin! galing nyo talaga! ÜÜÜ

ANG GALING TALAGA NI BOSS ANGEL KATS!!!!

2005-04-09T14:18:00.000+08:00

WOW... wala akong masay... ang galing ni boss ah... tnx boss angel for the wonderful blogskin!!!! Ü grabe, wala talaga akong msabi, I'm speechless!!!

Neway, today halos wala na naman akong nagawa, well, I watched the funeral mass for the Pope and spent some time sa internet at sa guitar, pero sabog pa rin eh. D AKO MAKAALIS NG BAHAY!!!! Pero dbale, hopefully by next week back to Katipunan ang buahy ko. Hahaha Ü

Today, the only thing productive that I did was to try out the plucking of the song Broken Sonnet. Haha, the adlib part turned out to be a BIG challenge. Ang bilis kasi.. hay... magagawan ng paraan yun. Sabi naman ni Boss kaya ko kaya kaya ko yun Ü Hehehehe ÜÜÜ

Cge mga people, ,un na lang muna, bye bye ÜÜÜ

Ano nangyari d past 36 or so hours...

2005-04-08T14:05:00.000+08:00

Ok, here we go, hahaha... Ok, so kung 36 hours, let's start at 10:40 am yesterday! Ok, ano nga ba nangyari nun.... hhmm... from 10-1 wala naman msyadong nangyari, haha, naghintay lang akong mag 1 pm n kasi pupunta ko sa bahay ng tito ni boss angel para magswimming!!!!!!! Hay sa wakas, something to beat the heat!

Kaya yun, nandun kami ng dad ko ng mga bandang 1:30 or so tapos pumunta muna kami sa mcdo tapos bumalik kmi dun. Then after dumating sina boss, swimming time!!! The next 5-6 hours were dedicated for swimming, eating (pag ginutom habang lumalangoy), putting some air dun sa crocodile (hahaha, na nabutas din eventually), eating again, guitara (dahil pinupulikat paa ko) at kung anu-ano pa, hahaha Ü then after that sumama ako sa bahay nila boss at un, sinundo ako ng 9 ng dad ko. Sayang 'di ko nakanta yung Pabis... promise k pa naman kay boss... hay... cge cge.. next time next time! Hay... I hope malapit na yung next time na yun... I really want to see Boss Angel Kats again...

Ok after that, usap kami ni boss sa txt at nakatulog ako.. wahhh!!! sorry boss! Then the next day, bday naman ni lolo!! Yey Ü Iingay na naman dito sa bahay dahil pupunta mga pinsan ko!! Haha, kaya nga ngayon ko lang napost 'to, hahaha Ü Plus, sabi ni boss na tapos na daw nya yung blogskin na bibigay nya sakin. Grabe bait talaga!! tnx boss ÜÜÜ

Haha, anyway, kulang kulang pero more or less that's it! haha, cge people, ingats!

Taking a risk here...

2005-04-01T15:52:00.000+08:00

But what the heck, might as well do it. Sooner or later you'll know anyway what that pharase is. So might as well tell you sooner, even thought I'd much prefer to say it personally. But, as I said, what the heck, might as well do it now...

Well, I have been telling you what that phrase means for a long time already, but not verbally though. Hopefully, you already saw it through my actions. The only thing missing are the words so that it could be complete (I hope).

Basta, no matter what happens after this, bahala na si Lord sa mga mangyayari.

15 minutes and counting....

2005-03-30T15:09:00.000+08:00

Labo ng title noh? neway, ,ganyan yan kasi I promised boss angel na matutulog ako ng 11, haha, at 10:45 na sa cell ko, kaya un... hay.. tapos na dapat ang entry na 'to knina kung d lang nagloloko yung pc.... haaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyy............

Anyway, there have been a lot of stuff happening this past few days, some ok lang, some nakakabad trip at some sobrang masaya Ü Hehe, so let's start!

First of, Graduation, the one thing that I don't know if I'm happy about it or not. Labo noh? well, Masaya ako dahil magtatapos na ko kaso parang, I still don't want high school to end.. bitin ang apat na taon... at asar pa ko kasi napostpone pa yung lakad namin ng 4M sa Batangas at ang masaklap pa dun, na resched sa date kung san may klangang akong puntahan with my parents.... crap... hay... no choice naman ako... bad trip...

Ok, Holy Week naman. Kakagaling k lang sa Los Baños! yey Ü hahaha! My once a year thing haha, every year kasi I go to my uncle's place during the Holy Week. At doon, as my cuz said in her blog, I learned the art of being a log (cuz tama ba?) Pano ba naman, kain, tulog, gitara, pc, txt, movie, text, movie, kain, tulog, movie, txt... basta, ay get the picture. Hahaha, Ü Plus, masaya ko nung stay ko sa lb Ü (at alam ni boss kung bakit, dba? ay! 9 mins na lang...) Tapos on my way home, nkahanap pa ko ng place na pwede pagbilhan ng quality guitar na less than 5K! Nice!!!

Right after I got home, natandaan ko bigla na may year end evaluation pa kami sa CSO sa March 28. Well, that activity formally ended CSO Batch 6.... ngaawww.. I'm gonna miss all those moments where I got the chance to do all those stuff... well... I can still visit whenever I want, lalakarin ko lang ng ilang minutes at nasa OSA na ulit ako. Pero, it still woun't be the same...

Change mood nga!!! Haha, neway, si boss knukulit ako tungkol dun sa "sana ******* *** ** **** ***** ****" na natype ko sa isang survey sa friendster. Well, isa lang masasabi ko sau boss angel Ü I'll say what that means pag nagkita tayo Ü I don't want to say it unless face to face tayo Ü Hehehe Ü

YEY! gagawan ako ni boss ng blogskin para sa blog ko!!!! yyyyeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!! hehehe, tnx boss ÜÜÜ

AAAAAYYY!!! Nagextend na pala ako... hehehe, oops Ü cge, hanggang dito na lang muna! Ü

Lapit na...

2005-03-19T02:49:00.000+08:00

Well, sa wakas Graduation na sa Sunday.. pero as of now, I don't feel it yet. It's now the lack of preparation or anything ah. Maybe it's because I don't want this to end yet. Four years are not enough. There are still a lot of things for us to do. Pero, la na kong magagawa kundi balikan na lang lahat ng kalokohan, asaran, lakad, inuman, sigawan, kopyahan, mga pagkacram ng lahat ng mga bagay at kung anu-ano pa.

Bitin ang apat na taon. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero pakiramdam ko bitin ito. Hindi ko pa talagang nakikilala kayong lahat. Iilan lang talaga ang masasabi ko na nakilala ko sa inyo. Wala pa ngang kalahati. Siguro kasalanan ko na rin yun. Haha, nakakalungkot pero ganun eh.

Pero, ang pangalan lang naman na 4M ang mawawala sa pagtatapos natin. Nandyan pa naman tayong lahat. Naghiwalay lang ng konti. Mananatili pa rin ang mga inuman at kalokohan at ang iba pang mga bagay.

Kapos ng aang apat na taon, pero hindi pa naman tapos. Diba?

Long time since last post ko, haha, mahaba 'to

2005-03-14T12:55:00.000+08:00

Ok, to start things of, March 2 --> start of Summer CAT, hahaha, kahit pano masaya naman siya. Especially nung day na nagpunta kami sa Circle para mag rapelling!!! hahaha, yun masaya!!! Pero tomorrow na yung last day namin, haha, after that, talagang tapos na ang high school, well more or less, hahaha Ü

Hhhhmmm.. ano pa ba, well, wala naman masyadong nangyari the past few days aside from CAT kasi nga pag-uwi ko bihis, ligo, kain ng madami at tulog agad, hahaha. Pero, may thankfully may mga stuff na nangyari, haha. ANG LABO KO TALAGA... well, that's life...

The first thing na nangyari these past few days is yung thanks giving dinner sa MST lobby for the Sanggu-HS leaders this year nung Thursday. Well, all I can say tungkol dun is that it would be one of the most memorable thing na matatandaan ko. Not because of the awards the seniors received, or the very delicious dinner (sakto, gutom pa ko dahil sa CAT), but maybe because of the company. Matagal-tagal na rin na hindi kami nagkaron ng ganun sa Sanggu. It was a night full of fun kung baga, haha. Hay, after that nagpapicture pa kaming CSO, hahaha. Hayyy.. I'm gonna miss those moments... I'm gonna miss everything...

Tapos before that, nasa bahay pa ko ni Dino kasama ni Carlo at Amos! Pagdating namin ay Tekken 5 agad! hahaha! After a few lessons (haha) from Dino, nagsimula kaming mag-unlock ng characters, hehehe. Sobrang saya! lalo na dun sa boss, hahaha, sigaw kami ng sigaw!! as in "NNNNOOOOOOOOO!!!!" at "MMMMAAAAALLLLLLLAAAAAAPPPIIIIITT NNNNAAAA!!!!!" at "AAAAAAAAARRRGG!!!!!" hahaha! basta, sobrang saya!!! Then naligo kaming lahat at nag-ayos to go to the dinner. Grabe, masyado akong formal!!! yak!!! hahaha Ü

Tapos after that, Grad Ball kahapon!!! Well, sad to say, hindi ako ganun kasaya nung bandang dulo ng grad ball. Sa lahat ng lakad nung class after, hindi ako nakapunta... hay, sayang memories sana un!!! Tapos 'di pa ko nakapunta sa party ni boss angel...... wwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gusto ko pa namang pumunta!!!! kaya naman eh!!!! d lang talaga pinayagan... hay... bwisit... babawi ako next time, promise boss!!!!! Hay... life.. sabog talaga yung day na un... Pero kahit pano may magandang nangyari nung madaling araw. Masaya kasi tinawagan ako ni boss nung bandang 1:30 (tama ba boss?) basta, around that time, hehe Ü Ayos nga eh, tumawag siya kasi daw natulugan nya ko sa txt (hehe, ayos lang p boss Ü) tpos nag-usap kmi ng mabilis at after nun, paghiga k ulit sa kama (kasi nung nag-uusap kami nakaluhod ako sa kama dahil katabi pa nung printer yung nag-iisang place kung san may signal ang sun sa kwarto ko, hahaha) I can't help but smile. Hehe, cliche as it may sound, ganun pa rin yung nangyari!! Haha, wala lang, bigla lang akong napangiti. Galing kasi ni boss angel kats eh!!!! Hehe, tapos after nun, nakatulog an ko, hehe Ü

Basta, yun na lang muna, hahaha, post ulit ako some other time, bye people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, tapos na acads, physical load naman...

2005-03-01T13:21:00.000+08:00

Hay, thank God at tapos na!!!! THANK GOD TAPOS NA ANG MGA EXAM SA HIGH SCHOOL!!!! Now, isang bagal na lang talaga!!!! CAT na lang. Lang ah... oh booooyyyy... good luck na lamh samin...

Ano oh, good luck sa exams nyo boss angel!!!! Ü

Throw

2005-02-27T15:19:00.000+08:00

I still feel
you are lost
between him and I..

You don't know
what is real
and what's a lie...

Now you're lost,
so am I,
I see him,
and I start to cry...

And I wish you would
forget the way that he could
make you smile and make you cry
at exactly the same time
Forget the little things he do
and treasure all I do for you
For me my forever's you
but you still don't know who...

I don't know
if your stories
are all complete

You've assured me,
a thousand times before
but i still freak out...

Now you're lost,
so am I,
you're with me
but you don't know why...

And I wish you would
forget the way that he could
make you smile and make you cry
at exactly the same time
Forget the little things he do
and treasure all I do for you
For me my forever's you
but you still don't know who...

Forget the little things
he used to do to you
and treasure all i do
I do for you
No more him's
Ano no more his.
Just me and you, me and you
our whole lives through...

Bye friend...

2005-02-25T13:26:00.000+08:00

Hay... I hate saying good bye's, especially when i'm saying it to a friend.

Well, today I went to eat with a friend of mine from MC, she invited me kasi to come with her a few days ago. So pumayag naman ako.Now, while we were eating sa Bento Box sa Katipunan she said good bye. Hay, kasi she was going to study sa Ateneo De Davao for College kaya she has to leave. But the sad thing is she said that there's a slim chance that she can go back here, so... asar...

Hay, basta whatever happens, we'll try our best to stay in touch, Ü

Something I got from Deens, haha Ü

2005-02-24T18:00:00.000+08:00

if you read this journal,even if i don't speak to you often,post a memory of me.it can be anything you want.it can be good or bad,just so long as it's happened.then post this in your journal.see what people remember about you.[if you do this, i'll promise to do the same for you!]

Ok, random thoughts for the past few days...

2005-02-24T17:58:00.000+08:00

Feb 23...
UPCAT results.. hay.. chamba na nakapasa ko... thanks God!!!! At nfayon ko lang nalaman course ako, haha, economics Ü Neway, time for physics... ggrrr....

I really hope na magka oras si boss angel na magpahinga these days... masyado n cyang nagpapakapagod at nagpupuyat... and i don't want my boss to stress herself out.. baka magkasakit siya (sana wag Ü)... kaya pray na lang ako kay God to give her additional strength para matapos nya yung mga klangan nyang gawin... Ü KAYA NYO P YAN BOSS ANGEL KATS!!!!!!

Feb 20 ...
JGSOM Open House... Hhaayyyy.... I woke up at around 3 am, hahaha! excited! But I had to wake up early coz I had to write something important because I need to finish it before we went to ADMU, hahaha

Neway, the Open House was great, aside from the fact na nanakot yung dean about dun sa confirmations sa courses, hahaha, 160 slots lang for managenent!!!! ggrr... klangang mahabol ko un...!!!! hahaha Ü

Feb 17...
TEDDIES!!!! Hay... second to the last big activity ng CSO... patapos na kami..... wwwwaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!!!!! anyway, the awarding was fun, hahaha, kulit pa nung code name ko!! General Post Master, hahaha. Kasi the theme was about super heroes kasi, so lahat kami may code name, hahaha Ü

Pero the really touching part was the ending of the program... hay... maski simpleng video lang siya, it managed to make all of us sentimental... hahaha, CSO batch 6, I'll never forget you guys! I'll never forget the memories!! Promise!!! malah ko kau lahat!!! Ü

Feb 14...

Ok valentines day!! Nbilib ako sa sarili ko that day!! Ya know why? I finally had the courage to actually do something for someone special!!! Hehehe, galing kasi maginspire ni boss angel eh Ü Haha Ü Totoo naman kasi eh Ü Well, boss, i hope na you like the rose and leter Ü hehe Ü

Malapit na kong mapalitan....

2005-02-05T23:18:00.000+08:00

Last Friday the CSO held its annual incoming Org Heads and Vice Presidents leadership seminar. Masaya naman siya, may games at funny moments at kung anu-ano pa. To cap things up nung day 1, nagorder kami ng Yellow Cab nung bandang 11:30 (naks alam pa yung time!). Dumating yung pizza 2:45 na.... hahaha... to make a long story shot, 3:30 na kami nakatulog and we needed to be wide awake by 6:30 to start day two. Hahaha, nice one Batch 6! hahaha.

Anyway, day two was a bit light since the seminar would end by around lunch time. So after breakfast, we had a module concerning the SOP's of the orgs (conducted by the deputies, haha, naks!) Then, we had a talk by Mr. Pagsi. Grabe, ang galing nya (Next time I'llpost the prayer Mr.Pagsi shared to us nung talk. It was eally simple, but the way he said it made it really unique and beautiful). Simple things lang yung sinabi nya pero ang bigat! Then we had the elections for the Cluster Heads.

After seeing the results of that elections, I can't help but think that after this, Ma'am Sylvs would appiont the new deputies and then as a friend of mine said earlier this evening "poof!" haaay. It all happened so fast. One day, we were the ones elected and appointed. We were the ones planning. Then, biglang, we see the new Cluster Heads and we (Batch 6) can't help but remember all those times we were together. And I can say that we'll miss all this once we set foot in college.

Maybe I was just holding back tears this morning during the mass. I don't know. But one thing's for sure. I'll make the most out of the time we have left as the CSO Core Group Batch 6.

After this year, all I can do is go on with life and hold on to all the memories. Thanks for everything Deens, Peter, Patrick, Arjay, Kevin, Carlo, Tantan, Billy, Amos, DanJ, Justin, Ma'am Sylvs, Ma'am Ditas, Sir Noel, Mike, Jorge, Danaps, Lorenze, Miggs, Quito, Jauro, Mico and everybody from the Sanggu. I love ya guys!! Thanks for the memories.

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Senti Mode: ON

2005-02-02T19:51:00.000+08:00

Ok, it's been quite a while since I last posted something here.. Haayy... ang dami kasing trabaho... anyway, kunin ko na yung opportunity na 'to para makasulat.

First thing's first. BBBBBUUUUUUUWWWWWIIIIIIIIIISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEETTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!
I just need to let that out.

Ok, todat turned out to be a draining day. Well, mentally I mean. The forst reason is because of the 3 longtests we took today. The English and Math were ok. But the music long test (may it burn in hell...) let's just say that... ok, I think you guys get the picture... hahahaha... tawa na lang ako sa sarili ko na parang baliw.. haha.

But enough with the scores and academics... I just realized today how much time I had left as a high school student. More or less 14 school days left and some other days fo practices and stuff like that. Grabe. Ang bilis. Right now, I don't care much about the grade. Well, not as the usual grade conscious me. I'm focusing all my energies in my class. I want to share my last moments in high school with M2005 because i know that once we step foot in college, madami akong mamimiss. Mamimiss ko yung times na maingay kami sa clase, yung times na nagkokpyahan kami, yung times na nagkacram kami ng projects, yung times na nagiinuman kami, yung times na nakatambay kami kina CPG, yung times na nasa Mcdo kami, yung mga soiree, mga asaran, tugtugan, sigawan.. lahat. I'm gonna miss a lot of stuff. Even though we'll still do those things in college, parang, it would never be the same again... D' kumpleto ang mga tao kasi some of us will go to other universities.

Pero that's life I guess. All all of us can do now is move on to the beat.

Loving a Stranger

2004-12-31T07:50:00.000+08:00

Last night I was browsing my files in the PC and came across this little thing. A friend of mine gave a copy of this to me a long time ago and I typed it. Hahaha.. naks! Anyway, to those who can relate, tagos 'to sa puso, hahaha. Boss, don't worry, 'di po me sad ÜÜ hehehe Ü

LOVING A STRANGER

Two past three at dawn, my eyes were closing as
I lay comfortably on my bed when suddenly, a
scene played on my mind that kept me wide
awake...
“Para kanino yang binurn mong CD?”
“Ewan. Gusto ko lang magburn at gusto kong
magbigay. Di ko nga lang alam kanino.”
“Bakit di mo ko naisip bigyan?”
“Ni hindi ka nga sumasagot sa text ko eh, bakit
kita maiisip bigyan?”
“Ano naman koneksyon ng text sa CD?”
“Kung text ko nga di mo maappreciate, paano
pa ‘tong CD?”

That scene was fictional. How could I be able to
talk to you in that manner when I don’t even
spend time with you now? Mere fiction, yet I
felt like it was a conversation that stirred deep
emotions locked within me. Emotions I would
willingly offer, but sadly, you were too
reluctant to accept. So I was left without a
choice but to conceal it. I wasn’t good at that
though. My actions could never conceal how dear
you are to me. you were obviously my world, but I
hid that fact.. If hiding for you meant not
confessing it.

I once felt I was your world too. I once felt
there was no one special for you but me. I once
felt that you were content just to have me
beside you. If only once could last forever... :(

But look at us now... please tell me how this
happened? I don’t understand... How could
something so fine vanish even before its beauty
came into sight? Just when I thought it was
within my grasp, just when I thought the stars
finally gave in, just when I was thanking God for
granting me my crystal, it tumbled off my hand
again.

Look at us now...

Could you even see a trance that we were once
Inseparable? Now, I am loving you with my
chained and bruised heart, without anything to
hold on to, but your portrait on my mind. I am
loving you through darkness and distance, without
knowing if light would come and walls would
crash. I am loving you through hopes that the
stars would remind you how close we were to
getting there. I am loving you through prayers
that GOD INTENDED YOU FOR ME AND ME FOR YOU...

Look at us now…

Could you even see a trace that there was no one
I knew so well but you? Now, I see you walking
but I can’t even call you. I see you with your
new friends and I don’t even feel that I have a
place in your heart. I see you beside me but they no
longer look at me the same way. I see you, but
that just isn’t you...

For years, I was loving you behind chained
doors. I was loving you with my heart and my
mind, with my eyes closed and my hands numb. I
touch your hands and realize that I’ve never
touched a hand colder than yours. I open my eyes
and realize that I was loving someone from the
past. I realize that all this time, the person I
was loving has long been gone. I open my eyes and
reach out my hand and I realize that I love a
stranger, and that stranger also could not
recognize me...

Taking a Trip Down Memory Lane

2004-12-28T11:58:00.000+08:00

I can't believe that its been exactly 2 years since that moment. Well almost 2 years since it happened at around 9:30. (Wow, people really have a way of remembering even the smallest details in a moment that really meant a lot to them. Haha, anyway enough with the side comments).

Let's see, two whole years. Time really flies fast. I can't believe that two years have passed me by. Lookig back, I can see that a lot of things have changed. And I mean A LOT. Two years ago I saw a little boy admiring his little star. He would have given anything just to make that little star his. But, fate has a way of pulling some strings. Soon enough the little boy saw that his arms were too short to hold the star. And so the boy grew into young man. Someone who is willing to take the risk rather than just to sit in a corner while love's right in front of him. His view of heaven widening, and slowly aquiring the guts to do what's best. Or at least on what he believes in.

People, pagpasyensyahan nyo na at ma drama. Minsan-minsan lang 'to! promise. Hey, listen, if ever you're reading this (you know who you are), I really don't know what to say to you right now. So I guess I'll just repeat what you said last Tuesday. Bahala na. I'll just loose myself in whatever melody life gives me.

Wow... Bah Humbug na ba 'to???

2004-12-25T20:18:00.000+08:00

Its AMAZING how one small thing can ruin a very wonderful day such as TODAY!! I don't know why I'm so pissed of at someone, hahaha, and for such a very small reason. Anyway, that's life.

Tawa na lang ako. As usual. Happy holidays people!! Ü

A Christmas Unlike Any Other

2004-12-23T14:15:00.000+08:00

Hindi ko na maramdaman ang Pasko kagaya ng dati. I don’t know why I’m even writing this but what the hell, lose yourself nga diba? Anything goes… One… Two… Three…

Problems for everyone. May it be because of the typhoons, the death of prominent people, shallow stuff like ones grades, an end of a relationship, people who don’t know when to quit or even holding back feelings for someone because you know that you can never be. The point is everyone has a problem or two that they need to deal with.

I don’t know why but every time I look at the TV or listen to the Radio, I always hear some group complaining about how the government is being run or a reporter reporting an accident that killed a few people or the catastrophe in Real Quezon. Other times, I see them crying their hearts out for very legitimate reasons. And the Ironic thing is, these feelings are the ones that make the people of this country stand together and when the crisis or mourning is over, everyone suddenly turns a blind eye on all the other things and goes back to their lives, not caring what would happen to the other people they were together with before.

Even in the inner circle of my friends, I can see things other than Christmas. I see apathy, indifference and the like. I’m not exempted from this. I may be the most apathetic of them all. I see these things but I’m too scared to do something about it. Even though I’m in a position where I can make a difference.

It suck you know, when a person is trying to make a difference. He detaches his or herself to the negative aspects of society and once he tries to make the difference, society deems that person an outcast since he doesn’t exercise what society normally does.

Anyway, enough with the ranting. It’s Christmas and it may be better to focus on the reason why we even celebrate Christmas. God I wish a was a child again so that I can enjoy this season with no worries on what will happen after…

Lose yourself in the music...

2004-12-22T14:46:00.000+08:00

Lose yourself... and let go of all the stress and worries of life even just for a moment. Once this is done, you'll find yourself losing control and enjoying it. Let the rhythm take you to places inside yourself that you've never seen before. Open all possibilities and see that you can be more than what you are now. There's always room for improvement. Never let others stop you from being what you are and be what you want to be. Lose yourself... let go... and let the rhythm take you where you're supposed to be...