You'll be wasting your time if you read this (rant rant)

Why is it that whenever I visualize some event that I want to happen in the future, fate, destiny or whatever that shit’s called, finds a way to steer away from that specific event?

No, really, I mean, other people always visualize their goal may it be a simple slow dance in a prom with the girl they like or something as big as being able to achieve something that only a few people can do. Yeah, these people do that and achieve the things they visualized. But why the hell does that not happen to me and why does the opposite of what I visualize happen? What the fuck did I do?!

Yeah, once and a while I get selfish, so bear with me with this one. I have a feeling that this will be full of my bull. Selfish as it is, I want it to come out here so that I’ll not bring it with me to school this Monday. I want the start of my second sem to be a good one. I don’t want to see myself sulking and infecting the people I see.

Anyway, back to the topic. I really don’t understand if all this is just a series of coincidences or just plain bad luck. The next stuff I’ll write are just some of the many examples of what happens to me when I visualize something.

Way back when I was in grade 7, oh how I wished to be one of those people who had the privilege to catch the lower batch students and place them in a jail booth during the grade school fair (hey, that was my dream then!). You see, only grade 7 classes were allowed to have a jail booth. But what happened? Some stupid terrorist bombed something and the whole fair was cancelled because the school felt that “it is not good to celebrate while our brothers and sisters are in misery...” Instead of the fair, the grade levels had their separate programs and I ended up in a booth selling food. The best part was that our class’ booth was in the middle of a muddy field. Fun. Then when I was in third year high school I dreamed that I would dance with the girl I loved back then (don’t get me wrong, we’re still the best of friends) during our prom, especially the slow dance part. But, again, it never happened and it would be best not to share too many details here for obvious reasons. For the people who knew what happened, alam nyo ‘to. The most recent thing is a lot less serious or as deep, but I guess that was the last straw (*laugh *laugh). I really did see myself using that ipod for a long time. And I really mean USE. I mean look at me, I love music and since I’ll have 3 hour breaks four days a week this sem, an ipod would certainly be great. Yeah people, I know this last thing is shallow, but wait till you know why I lost my ipod. No it did not get stolen, heavens no. And if I’ll tell the whole story here, I bet there would be a hell of a lot of bad words here. And I mean a HELL OF A LOT.

He could have just waited for around 40 minutes more to see the stupid report. It would not change anyway, even if you looked at it tomorrow. All I asked for was for you to patiently wait for forty lousy minutes until the scan was finished. But noooooooo… you can’t wait. Well screw you. As for the other one, why do you always think about the costs? But when it comes to him (this him is different from the “He” at the strat of the paragraph), you don’t care.

I really don’t understand it. Or maybe I’m just too blind right now to see through your actions. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t hate you or anything like that. But sometimes you really go too far.

OK! Enough ranting… this is already too much for one post. Yeah, I can be bad to people if they push me to my limit. To the people reading this shit of mind, sorry to waste your time with my useless ranting and please do me a favor. Whatever you read here, keep it to yourself ok? Thanks. If you want to comment, go ahead, hehehe =))

This is why I love to be spontaneous. I don’t like making plans for the future since I already know that it won’t happen. At least I don’t get disappointed right? I like it better to dance to the present beat rather than to the future.

Isang_Salita posted its thoughts at 5:02 PM -------------